How could I even tell where I was in my journey when my maps destination is just "Happily Ever After".
So I am starting from square one, identifying what will make me happy. Now being that I am 34 and female, or maybe its just being that I am me, the first thoughts that come to me are a wide list of things that would keep me from being happy. And while one might say eliminating the negatives is useful. I have come to the conclusion that in this endeavor it is more distraction and less enterprising time usage. So what do I want, well I want to be healthy. What is healthy? For a long time I would have told you that 112lbs and a size 6 was healthy. But would that make me healthy?
If I starved myself, yelled at my kids, doped up on diet pills and devastate my internal organs... would I be happy? Think that will have to be an easy answer of no. So what definition of healthy will make me happy? I want to be able to run a 5k without stopping in under 9 minutes per mile. I want to be able to do 40 sit ups 40 push ups and get up comfortably. I want to Be able to do pull ups. I want to be healthy so that I can enjoy athletics and not dread the fact that I will have to cop out early on because my body just cant handle being active. Now I can see this having some impact on my weight and shape, but even if I don't reach 112lbs, and I never fit into a size 6. I know that this would make me more happy then that.
Although I would find happiness in that it is only one aspect of who I am creating. To find lasting happiness I need to look at my life and truly find who I want to be.
